lost.

lost.

I ask myself have I done my best and the answer is, yes and no. I have studied for this test the best i know how to but yet I know it is still inadequate. And that is why I still stumbled at the two questions which everyone else found easy.

Am I sad? Yes I am. Can I pick up the pieces and move on? I am trying to. Easier said than done!

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I wonder, deep inside is there anyone I can turn to in times like this?

Is there anyone who really cares and is willing to listen?

As far as I know, now, NO and therefore I must continue to plod on, fighting this solo battle till god-knows-when.

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Why am i hurting those who are closest to me?

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My faith. Not so long ago, this blog title was actually a theological statement. Back then, I professed to put my trust in some higher being but my actions were completely different.

Do I still subscribe to the same faith? Yes, I do in the sense that I believe in the existence of God who created the universe and sent His Son down to die for our sins. I go to church every sunday (well, ok, almost every sunday) etc, all the trappings etc. But do i lead what my peers define as a victorious christian life? answer yes or no.

Those of you out there who know me better will know that i am going through a rough patch in my life. This blog title, my own world may be changed soon because my world is gradually starting to fall apart.

maybe i should change it to "my own world :("

why should i even bother to type this? will people listen? NO so the answer is NO, i shall not bother to type anymore.