random musings of a 22 year old.

after seeing my dismal results i have this thought to myself:

CHIONG 2ND UPPER FOR F*CK?

seems very sad that our worth in university is characterised by this number between 0 to 5.

do i really need a 2nd upper to do what i want?

i only get a first degree ONCE. a 2nd first degree is possible, but the cost of it is prohibitive.

career choices?

teaching - 2nd upper recommended. Also a strong will and control over the kids
police - 2nd upper required. Also strong physical fitness, etc
hypnotherapist - B.Eng, after that i can go for my training

coming to engin was a mistake. i need to minimise the other mistakes, do damage control, to prevent them from fucking up the rest of my life.

1/4 of my life is done, the foundation is already built. i guess having made it to uni, i am within the top 25%, but not good enough.

i was within the top 10% to make it to special stream and i bombed out. my l1r5 should have been single digit. i failed.

then, dropped even worse. not a single A on my A levels.

now, got a pathetic cap score.

i'm considering just dropping out, destroying everything, work full time for dad and train under him. No point memorising and regurgitating formulae which i am not going to use anyway.

results

Name : CHUA JIE HONG MATTHEW
Matric No :

2005/2006 Sem 2 Examination for ENGINEERING 1

Module Code Module Title Grade
CS1101C PROGRAMMING METHODOLOGY (ENGINEERING ONLY) A-
EG1108 ELECTRICAL ENGINEERING C+
MA1506 MATHEMATICS II C+
MNO1001 MANAGEMENT AND ORGANISATION B-
PC1432 PHYSICS IIE C+
SC1101E MAKING SENSE OF SOCIETY B-

CAP: 3.12

amazing how last sem's results came out before christmas. not a very good christmas present. this sem's results came out ON my birthday. DARN

random musings after a long hiatus

I'm beginning to wonder whether i indeed have any audience for my blog, or whether i am just talking to a wall... but nevermind. After all, i've not been updating my blog on a regular basis so i can't really expect too much...

As of now, i have quite a lot of committments outside NUS. Hall activities are one of them, and the other two major ones are St John and NPCC. St John wise, my involvement is now limited to public duty and advising the TICs and junior officers when advice is needed. It's NPCC for which I have a lot to look after. Currently many of my CIs are not able to make it as often due to their own committments in Poly/ITE. I have agreed to help with the training of the Sec 1s for the time being, but I am not sure as to whether I can commit to it or not, especially after term starts in August.

Currently, I have LMSC and SANA during the June holidays, not to forget my unit camp. I really don't know if I can commit fully to these three activities. Most likely I'll have to pull out of LMSC.

I ask myself, do I still wish to be involved in NPCC past my undergraduate years. There's a strong indication that I might not, unless there is a compelling reason to do so. Even if I do so, I would prefer to be involved at headquarters level. I feel i have passed the time when I still like to train cadets. That's just not my thing anymore.

In August, i'll be a second year. I have to stop those unproductive habits that put me behind in terms of studies. This include thinking falsely that I have nothing to do when in actual fact, I have quite a lot of outstanding work which is out of sight and out of mind.

As a second year, i'll really have to focus my energies once term starts on my studies. Everything else is secondary. I cannot repeat the same mistakes I made during first year. The second year will make or break my class of honours.

If that means not coming for NPCC as often as I would like to, so be it. I've got to know where my priorities lie. I'm sure OC will agree with me, and understand, should I not be able to turn up all the time.

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