random musings of a 22 year old.

after seeing my dismal results i have this thought to myself:

CHIONG 2ND UPPER FOR F*CK?

seems very sad that our worth in university is characterised by this number between 0 to 5.

do i really need a 2nd upper to do what i want?

i only get a first degree ONCE. a 2nd first degree is possible, but the cost of it is prohibitive.

career choices?

teaching - 2nd upper recommended. Also a strong will and control over the kids
police - 2nd upper required. Also strong physical fitness, etc
hypnotherapist - B.Eng, after that i can go for my training

coming to engin was a mistake. i need to minimise the other mistakes, do damage control, to prevent them from fucking up the rest of my life.

1/4 of my life is done, the foundation is already built. i guess having made it to uni, i am within the top 25%, but not good enough.

i was within the top 10% to make it to special stream and i bombed out. my l1r5 should have been single digit. i failed.

then, dropped even worse. not a single A on my A levels.

now, got a pathetic cap score.

i'm considering just dropping out, destroying everything, work full time for dad and train under him. No point memorising and regurgitating formulae which i am not going to use anyway.

results

Name : CHUA JIE HONG MATTHEW
Matric No :

2005/2006 Sem 2 Examination for ENGINEERING 1

Module Code Module Title Grade
CS1101C PROGRAMMING METHODOLOGY (ENGINEERING ONLY) A-
EG1108 ELECTRICAL ENGINEERING C+
MA1506 MATHEMATICS II C+
MNO1001 MANAGEMENT AND ORGANISATION B-
PC1432 PHYSICS IIE C+
SC1101E MAKING SENSE OF SOCIETY B-

CAP: 3.12

amazing how last sem's results came out before christmas. not a very good christmas present. this sem's results came out ON my birthday. DARN

random musings after a long hiatus

I'm beginning to wonder whether i indeed have any audience for my blog, or whether i am just talking to a wall... but nevermind. After all, i've not been updating my blog on a regular basis so i can't really expect too much...

As of now, i have quite a lot of committments outside NUS. Hall activities are one of them, and the other two major ones are St John and NPCC. St John wise, my involvement is now limited to public duty and advising the TICs and junior officers when advice is needed. It's NPCC for which I have a lot to look after. Currently many of my CIs are not able to make it as often due to their own committments in Poly/ITE. I have agreed to help with the training of the Sec 1s for the time being, but I am not sure as to whether I can commit to it or not, especially after term starts in August.

Currently, I have LMSC and SANA during the June holidays, not to forget my unit camp. I really don't know if I can commit fully to these three activities. Most likely I'll have to pull out of LMSC.

I ask myself, do I still wish to be involved in NPCC past my undergraduate years. There's a strong indication that I might not, unless there is a compelling reason to do so. Even if I do so, I would prefer to be involved at headquarters level. I feel i have passed the time when I still like to train cadets. That's just not my thing anymore.

In August, i'll be a second year. I have to stop those unproductive habits that put me behind in terms of studies. This include thinking falsely that I have nothing to do when in actual fact, I have quite a lot of outstanding work which is out of sight and out of mind.

As a second year, i'll really have to focus my energies once term starts on my studies. Everything else is secondary. I cannot repeat the same mistakes I made during first year. The second year will make or break my class of honours.

If that means not coming for NPCC as often as I would like to, so be it. I've got to know where my priorities lie. I'm sure OC will agree with me, and understand, should I not be able to turn up all the time.

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Enjoy!

injured!

today i fell into the drain next to block six after coming back from physics lecture! nothing broken, but i had quite a nasty cut on my right big toe and abrasions on my elbow and legs. Argh! .... still got CIBTC chaperon (read: DOO) duties over the next few days. ... think still have to do it since i already agreed with yong fu that i will be doing it... oh well...

chance to stay.. ?

currently, i have the chance to continue to stay back in Raffles Hall if i take up Float and LSM MM. Killing two birds in one stone. But i am not sure as to whether i wish to do so or not... currently, during the holidays i am quite packed with my committments with NPCC and i feel i will not be able to do a good job if i spread my self too thin over the holidays. cos i still have my work at Staff Club, my Special Term module, Hillgrove NPCC camp, Hillgrove NPCC POP, LMSC, .... it will not be nice if i cannot be too involved in NPCC because of hall and i cannot be too involved in Hall because of NPCC.

At the end of the day, maybe i'd choose just to come back through the waiting list, and join Float 07/08 when the time comes. dunno? if i leave hall now, chances are that i'm never going to come back. unless through NUS NPCC i can somehow get an insane number of points. it's quite impossible considering that clubs and societies, which NUS NPCC falls under, have minimal points...

i am staying in RH next sem - NOT!

the title says it. basically, i have been kicked out of hall, for want of ONE sorry activity. and, with that, no "ad-hoc activities" as the politically correct term is.... else i will have gotten somewhere better. now, i have no hall.

i am a local and it is no issue for me to stay at home. but staying in hall is never about the distance (at least , that is the case after a while.) its about the friends, the hall life. well fellow hostelites will catch my drift. non-hostelits won't.

hope to be able to come back, once roof renovation is over and done with... cos there will probably be more rooms available then...

meanwhile, trying to decide whether to appeal for masters' list or not. or simply concentrate on NPCC.

CCA matters.. yada yada

I realised my discrete points for EAL had been cut to 3.0. Probably because my performance for open house

I decided that I will not run for NUSNPCC EXCO next year. Too much of a political game. Just fulfil the requirements in my unit while also being as active in HQ as i wish. Hopefully HE will become a HO and be posted to my unit, then I can step aside, he is better equipped for the role than I am.

Then again it's good that I didn't join EXCO for that reason. Although it's about leadership posts and yada yada.. but when it comes with having to play politics to stay up there, I am not interested at all.

Got other leadership posts elsewhere where the competition is, for lack of a better word, non-existent?

my results... and i am staying in RH next sem

well, my mid-term results:

CS1101C: 17/21 :)
MA1506: 9/12 :S
EG1108: 32/50 :|
PC1432: 2/15 :`(

well, my points allocation.. i cleared D&D and EAL and, to my surprise, the participation activity also! but i failed badminton... so i have to get in on masters' list ... shall see how.

my laptop has died!

after about 9 months plus, my Apple laptop died on me yesterday. i suspect an ant got into the system and short-circuited the circuitry...

as of now, i've sent the laptop in for repairs. the serviceman told me that chances of getting my data back are slim in fact. Well, shit DOES happen. A lesson learnt to back up my files anyway.

I've requested them to try their best to recover my hard disk, but I am fully prepared if that is unsuccessful.

Thank God that didn't happen before the exams.